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Ambiguous Loss

Flight. Fight. Flee. There are no other choices when confronted with trauma, with a dangerous and life threatening situation. Each occurrence elicits a unique reaction. Each reaction has its own flow of consequences. The difference between living to tell the tale or becoming a cautionary one. However, what happens when the events affect us because […]

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Cheers to 2020!

Here’s to the earthquakes, The raging fires, The passionate Earth letting us know it’s in desperate need of change. Here’s to the politics, The bad decisions of those elected to lead without knowing how to. Here’s to the civil wars, The unrest of social justice, To the plight of the oppressed and misunderstood. May we […]

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FOMO (A Poem)

I check my phone constantly,Wondering,Waiting,Anticipating,Fearing the worst. What if today is the day?The moment the good turns into bad,The unfortunate confluence of experiences that deprives me of you? The TV,A cool breeze,The warmth of a freshly cleaned towel,An unpaired sock.They all remind me of what was,of what could have been,of what was lost to good […]

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Happy 5th Anniversary, MrsEnginerd!

Time flies by so fast! I can’t believe we already have another year on the books, sharing knowledge about love, DIYs and the pursuits of nerds. I wish we could have celebrated in style, with our friends and family, but remaining safe during the pandemic is paramount. We shelter in place and find ways to […]

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Not all is lost

Anger,Fear,Anxiety,RageThe crushing blow of a reality without you makes me weak,dull,mad,violent. I crawl into a ball gripping tightly to memories that still remain,Wishing I was in your arms, peacefully unaware of the lifetime I will endure without you. Who will build me up when others tear me down?Who will love me unconditionally, without hesitation?Who will […]

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About MrsEnginerd

When I started writing under the Mrsenginerd pseudonym I was in the middle of a career shift. My employer had done a reduction in workforce exercise that had left me jobless a month after my 10th anniversary with the company (The Layoff). As a married woman with no kids, there was a lot of free […]

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Lessons From The Laundry Pile

I must have been around three years old when my mother decided to enlist me for sock folding duty. It was a task she took very seriously because protecting your feet from the dangers of humidity and water accumulation inside military boot had been her worst enemy as she went up through the ranks. Maybe […]

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In Memoriam: Grandma Delia

My grandmother was a spectacular woman, a true warrior who stopped at nothing to keep her family safe and well fed. She was ahead of her time in ways that are easy to admire and hard to explain: she was fierce, a very confident and assertive piece of work that always spoke her mind. When […]

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Top 5 Snow Handling Hacks for Snow Noobs

For the last two weeks the Pacific Northwest (PNW) has been surprised with a foot or more of cumulative snow fall, a freak occurrence in these parts of the world. (Blame Global Warming!) To survive in the “arctic tundra” there are a few easy tools and procedures you can follow to make your experience more […]

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F@%k Cancer, Part 7

Can’t. Used to. Was. Doesn’t. Loved. These are the words I never thought I would use to describe my mother at 63 years of age. So full of life a few months ago and now she is, for the most part, bed ridden and/or lethargic. She can barely speak, eat or drink. This brick house […]