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The Brother Sized Hole in My Heart

The older brother sized hole in my heart is ever expanding. Ever present. All consuming. Impossible to ignore. So much love poured out of me and into the ether hoping it would find him well, like the emails and texts I would never be able to send. For as much as my father insisted he […]

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A Month of Saying “Yes”

W, my partner in crime, decided recently that life was too short to deprive those we love of our efforts; of our presence, love and understanding. He chose to say “yes” to every request that crossed his agenda, reserving some time to chill and explore how he felt after agreeing to experience new activities and […]

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Love and Marriage Mrs Enginerd

Love, Eternal

Today I lost another friend to doubt and indifference; to social norms impossed by others; to the cruel reality of adapting to change and overcoming fear. I struggle to see the need of the inflicted pain, Of the perceived life’s lessons; The need to judge a person and deprive them of forgiveness for following their […]

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The Simple Things

Alcapurrias. The dog snoring, cozied up to the newly remodeled fireplace. Home Depot… There are so many things to be grateful for, to celebrate, even after losing so much, so quickly. Up until now my mom’s death had sunk me into a deep and profound solitude from which very few people could rouse me. I […]

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Interrupted

I want the world to stop. To remain as she last saw it. To hover, unchanged, between what was and what could have been. I need back all those minutes with her, To enjoy the booming laughter; The lovely smile that always grew wider and brighter when I entered the room. A part of me […]

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Adulting Etiquette Love and Marriage

Ask Away

Got a crush? Let them know you are interested. Need assistance? Tell those around you. Job sucks? Network to seek career opportunities. Don’t have a network? Cold call professionals in your interest areas to figure out next steps. Feeling alone? Reach out to support groups and alliances. Show up to a meeting or gathering. Missing […]

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Stuck In The Middle

Life almost never works out as expected. By the time I turned 40, the last thing I thought I was going to be a DINK with a special needs doggo and unemployed. A few weeks before the big ascent into the euphemistical 4th floor, the job materialized. My first paycheck served as a much needed […]

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The Power or Dissent

Neyt. Nein. No. Nee. Non. La. Iie. Nu. Mana. Nej. Nay. The word no is not just an acceptable answer, it’s also a complete sentence. It’s unapologetic. Brave. Bold. Powerful. Saying no is an art form in and of itself because it requires discipline, courage and deliberate actionable follow through. You can’t back down after […]

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The Subtle Power of Influence

We all have influence. Every interaction, every piece of advice we deal, shapes others in ways that forever change the course of history. From a polite greeting to a bad deed, our choices impact others, transforming life for better or worse. It is in these unforseen moments of kindness and cruelty that we touch and […]

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We Lost Dear Friends on New Year’s Day

Five years ago, I released a post about Jesús and Kate’s murder: I Lost a Friend on New Year’s Day. Writing about their life, love and friendship allowed me to pay tribute not only to them but to everyone touched by this tragedy. Words cannot accurately describe the magnitude of our sorrow but it is […]