Mrs. Enginerd - Nerd Whisperer
Today I lost another friend to doubt and indifference; to social norms impossed by others; to the cruel reality of adapting to change and overcoming fear. I struggle to see the need of the inflicted pain, Of the perceived life’s lessons; The need to judge a person and deprive them of forgiveness for following their […]
I feel him, In the darkness… A glimmer. Hope? Love? Lost or found? It sure feels like the end. It was foolish of me to claim his heart, Even after he claimed mine. Without love, what was given can never be returned. What was owed can never be repaid. Perhaps one day we’ll realize how […]
There’s been one constant in my life; one undeniable and certain truth. Whenever I was feeling blue, happy or plain homesick there was one place in the world I could count on to remain the same: Grandma’s. It was 1960something… Layo and Delia settle on a one story, 1000 sq ft, cement and rebar beauty […]
Off kilter. Off center. Crooked. Undone. Slanted. Lopsided. Taunting. Haunting. Awry. The fire within unwilling to be tamed, The rage, one sided, consuming unevenly my quiet existence, The voices in my head asymmetrically seek justice; The world spirals out of control, catawampus, discombobulating my soul.
Siempre hay alguien mas ajorao que uno, con mas prisa, a pesar de no tener rumbo a dirección. Es fascinante ver a la gente adoptar rutinas que no les sirven más que para esclavizarlos. No tienen tiempo ni para pensar y terminan delegando sus “thought processes” a sus líderes políticos, religiosos y hasta a sus […]
Writer’s block. Layoffs. Grief. Solace. Enlightenment. Failure. A pandemic… These are prime examples of opportunities to just be; to tame the passions that may drive us to wander carelessly in a world full of promise and uncertainty. More often than not the mind needs a break from our duties and daily machinations to see life […]
Alcapurrias. The dog snoring, cozied up to the newly remodeled fireplace. Home Depot… There are so many things to be grateful for, to celebrate, even after losing so much, so quickly. Up until now my mom’s death had sunk me into a deep and profound solitude from which very few people could rouse me. I […]
Covid-19 vaccines and boosters. The Jan 6th insurrection. Justice for Ahmaud. The cancelation of Chris Noth, Jeff Garlin and Donald Trump. Post pandemic schoold shootings. The AWS and Facebook outages. These were a few of the events that shocked the nation as the world slowly peeled away from stay at home orders and quarantines. Things […]
Light strung palm trees. Warm embraces. Gifts stacked three rows deep under the Christmas tree. Pleneras playing in the background. Alcapurrias. Pasteles. Lechón a la varita. Trash cans full of ice cold beers. The children play with generic brand toys. The men play domino and swap old war stories. The women toil in the kitchen […]
More. There’s always something more that could’ve been done. A larger donation. A bigger effort. A grander gesture. A better plan or result… It’s hard to not feel guilty when your imagination can think of a 1000 different ways to raise more funds. To engage more people. To advocate for the cause. To heighten an […]
Mrs. Enginerd - Nerd Whisperer 
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