Tag: making amends

Not all is lost

Anger,Fear,Anxiety,RageThe crushing blow of a reality without you makes me weak,dull,mad,violent. I crawl into a ball gripping tightly to memories that still remain,Wishing I was in your arms, peacefully unaware of the lifetime I will endure without you. Who will build me up when others tear me down?Who will love me unconditionally, without hesitation?Who will […]

Tags Adulting, Grief, hope, life, Loss, love, making amends, Motherless daughters, mrsenginerd, picking up the pieces, Poem, Poetry, Sadness, Sorrow

Adulting F@%k Cancer Mrs Enginerd

F@%k Cancer, Part 5

I need time to stop. For the seconds to slowly trickle and the minutes to last a lifetime. I’m not ready to see days turn into nights, to be closer yet farther away… Was this it? The last time I would see her? I found myself on an red eye flight to MSP, connecting through […]

Tags Adulting, brain cancer, Coping with, death sentence, diagnosis, Experience, forgivenss, fuck cancer, Glioblastoma, life, Loss, making amends, Mom, mother, mrsenginerd, only love, Testimonial, the big C, touching moments