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Adulting F@%k Cancer Mrs Enginerd

F@%k Cancer: Part 13

Putting the estate in order has been an overwhelming undertaking. It’s definitely sucking all the joy out of my life. I’m sure my sister isn’t enjoying it either. We are both mentally exhausted. Banks. Lawyers. Taxes. Insurance claims. Every day there is a new paper to fill, a new insurance adjuster or player to bring […]

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Adulting F@%k Cancer Love and Marriage Mrs Enginerd

Putting Things into Perspective

Tuesday, July 10 at 5:00 PM. The basement parking lot is eerily quiet, mostly empty except for a few cars and my light blue SUV, a short walk across the way. My steady steps echo off the walls, sending me into a soothing hypnotic trance. 👟👟👟 Random thoughts quickly flood my mind as the safe […]

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F@%k Cancer Mrs Enginerd

F@%k Cancer, Part 7

Can’t. Used to. Was. Doesn’t. Loved. These are the words I never thought I would use to describe my mother at 63 years of age. So full of life a few months ago and now she is, for the most part, bed ridden and/or lethargic. She can barely speak, eat or drink. This brick house […]

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Adulting F@%k Cancer Mrs Enginerd

F@%k Cancer, Part 6

There’s always a calm before the storm. The tumor’s original scan. Isn’t it impressive? To think that unevenly shaped – multiform mass had caused all this drama! I can’t believe it’s already December. Wow! Never in a million years did I think mom would be in hospice care at this age, much less waiting for […]

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F@%k Cancer Mrs Enginerd

Oh well, Hello again…from Kaleidoscopelaitha

https://wp.me/p6kdp4-62 Another point of view of my mom’s condition and cancer battle. My sister is going through hell, and like my mom, there’s not much I can do to save her other than love them harder…

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F@%k Cancer Mrs Enginerd

My Mom, The Colonel

Picture of my mom in front of an A-10, early 80s, courtesy of her friend Angelo of the CI Rangers. The toughest part of this cancer journey has been seeing my mom slowly deteriorate, an inevitable spiral that has forced me to reflect on who she was, and what she has accomplished. She’s a very […]

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F@%k Cancer Mrs Enginerd Poetry

Lost in Thought (Poem)

Memories. That’s all I see around me. The places I used to go. The person I used to be. I wander, as a stranger in my own land, letting each recollection guide me to a better place, To where childhood dreams were full of wonder; a time when everything was possible. Instead, what remains is […]