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Mom, I still miss you…

It’s been two years without you and I can’t still believe you are gone, trapped between my intangible memories and the great beyond. Two years of wishing and hoping you’d come through the door and yell “surprise, I’m here!”, returning the color to my gray toned existence. An eternity of unwritten texts, calls and conversations […]

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The Christmas Card

My S10 Note+ buzzes and shuffles around the kitchen island. Dread creeps in. Someone somewhere needs to reach me, NOW. Ugh! The introvert in me prepares for the worst – my clan and peeps text first, unless it’s an emergency. 😅 What now? 😶 A quick peek at the caller ID shows it’s my dad. […]

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Sifting Through The Past

Photographs. Papers. Triplicate copies of 214 Forms. Certificates. Divorce decrees. Typewritten letters of commendations and gratitude. Notes on the margins of decade old bills. The contents of the last box of heirlooms lays on the carpet floor waited to be collated, recycled, edited. The mission was a success. None of these papers and mementos tug […]

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Adulting F@%k Cancer Mrs Enginerd Project Zach

The Bestest Boy

We drive up to the tiny cottage house, solemn, quiet, amidst a pale soft ray of full moon light. The glow turned everything gray, with small whisps of black and white here and there. The small open front door cast a bright warm inviting luminescence that made one forget about the cold crisp summer air. […]

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The Layoff, Part Deux

Five years ago, shy of 10 years of service, I found myself at the wrong end of a 60 day notice. At first the world seemed to be coming to an end because my 15 year plan had been ruined. Little by little, I redesigned my goals and objectives around new possibilities; I started a […]

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Adulting Mrs Enginerd Project Zach

Cuteness Overload: Happy [Inter]National Dog Day!

The last 5 years with Zach have gone by so fast. I reinforces my desire that he lasts us forever. I catch my husband tearing up after a good bro session with Z, as he tries to imagine a life without him. According to the vet, our 80.4 lbs American Staffordshire Labrador mutt is healthy […]

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Work. Eat. Sleep. 🔄: The Quarantine Blues

137 days…197280 minutes of isolated, unadulterated, soul crushing routine. The cacophony of alarm clocks being snoozed during the week replaced by the welcomed silence of weekend mornings. Zach, our lab/AmStaff mix parades up and down the fence line, admonishing those who dared to go outside for a walk with or without masks. Airplanes fly overhead, […]

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The Valedictorian

It’s been over 20 years since I graduated high school. My diploma can legally sit at a bar in any city in the world! 😱 In hindsight, I can’t honestly state that those were the best years of my life. All I know is that they weren’t quite the worst either. 🤷‍♀️ The truth must […]

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Unlucky At Love

Financial and career success. ✔ College education (including multiple degrees) ✔ Strong nuclear families. ✔ Health and wisdom. ✔ Worldly view. ✔ Food on the table and a roof over our heads. ✔ Romantic partnership bliss 🚫 All three remaining generations of my maternal line suffer from the same ailment: They are awfully unlucky at […]

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Adulting Love and Marriage Mrs Enginerd

The Odd [Cousine] Couple

Our family can be best described as the introvert Brady bunch, if the Brady’s had been first cousins instead of a blended set of siblings. Together, the six of us learned about life, love and the pursuits of nerds from our maternal (and in one case paternal) branch of the family, spending most of our […]