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F@%k Cancer Mrs Enginerd

My Mom, The Colonel

Picture of my mom in front of an A-10, early 80s, courtesy of her friend Angelo of the CI Rangers. The toughest part of this cancer journey has been seeing my mom slowly deteriorate, an inevitable spiral that has forced me to reflect on who she was, and what she has accomplished. She’s a very […]

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Adulting F@%k Cancer Mrs Enginerd

F@%k Cancer, Part 3

She can’t cook. She can’t read. She can’t drive. When I got back home to the PNW, I realized mom needed some type of neurological rehabilitation routine and we never received confirmation from the doctors that this retraining was available. Weird. It’s been two weeks since we left the ICU and there are still no […]

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Adulting F@%k Cancer Love and Marriage Mrs Enginerd

F@%k Cancer, Part 2

“Lilo is coming?” She kept asking me where my sister was as she stalled for time to remember my name. The gorgeous smile that came with that question had a hint of quiet apprehension, because I wasn’t supposed to be there and she knew it. My presence wasn’t unwelcomed, nevertheless she must have realized something […]

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Adulting F@%k Cancer Mrs Enginerd

F@%k Cancer! (Prologue)

62 years. Is this all we get? She was supposed to grow old and gray. Maybe even die peacefully in her sleep at age 102, after reaping the rewards of the years she saved for retirement, for our colleges, for grandma’s funeral. Damn! She even saved for the grandkids that life never meant to deny […]