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Adulting Mrs Enginerd Poetry

Worth

Why are you imposing your view of the world on me? I know who I am. I am not misrepresenting the facts. I’m not being dishonest. I’m being me. Why can’t you let me be me? Why do you need me to absolutely align with your expectations or standards? How come you get to be […]

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Adulting Love and Marriage Mrs Enginerd

The Power of Loss

It’s been hard living in the world mom created for us without her. Everywhere we go a memory ambushes us, reminding our broken hearts of the missing shards; of how much she would have enjoyed sharing in the fun. I can’t quite explain it. Four years into this motherless daughter journey, life feels more like […]

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Adulting Mrs Enginerd Nerd Stuff Poetry

Be Whelmed!

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Adulting Love and Marriage Mrs Enginerd Nerd Stuff

The Brother Sized Hole in My Heart

The older brother sized hole in my heart is ever expanding. Ever present. All consuming. Impossible to ignore. So much love poured out of me and into the ether hoping it would find him well, like the emails and texts I would never be able to send. For as much as my father insisted he […]

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Adulting Layoff Mrs Enginerd

Ghosts of Engineering Lives Past

As of 3/24/2023, I’m back with my former employer. Although my job in tech was fun, the timing was right to shake things up a bit. Big Tech was going full corporate and I wasn’t liking it. Not going to lie, writing the resignation letter was a very emotional and cathartic experience. This was the […]

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Adulting Love and Marriage Mrs Enginerd

A Month of Saying “Yes”

W, my partner in crime, decided recently that life was too short to deprive those we love of our efforts; of our presence, love and understanding. He chose to say “yes” to every request that crossed his agenda, reserving some time to chill and explore how he felt after agreeing to experience new activities and […]

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Adulting Mrs Enginerd

The 9th House On The Right

There’s been one constant in my life; one undeniable and certain truth. Whenever I was feeling blue, happy or plain homesick there was one place in the world I could count on to remain the same: Grandma’s. It was 1960something… Layo and Delia settle on a one story, 1000 sq ft, cement and rebar beauty […]

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Adulting Mrs Enginerd Poetry

Askew (A Poem)

Off kilter. Off center. Crooked. Undone. Slanted. Lopsided. Taunting. Haunting. Awry. The fire within unwilling to be tamed, The rage, one sided, consuming unevenly my quiet existence, The voices in my head asymmetrically seek justice; The world spirals out of control, catawampus, discombobulating my soul.

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Adulting Mrs Enginerd

Siempre…

Siempre hay alguien mas ajorao que uno, con mas prisa, a pesar de no tener rumbo a dirección. Es fascinante ver a la gente adoptar rutinas que no les sirven más que para esclavizarlos. No tienen tiempo ni para pensar y terminan delegando sus “thought processes” a sus líderes políticos, religiosos y hasta a sus […]

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Adulting Mrs Enginerd

Fire Can Be Made to Rest

Writer’s block. Layoffs. Grief. Solace. Enlightenment. Failure. A pandemic… These are prime examples of opportunities to just be; to tame the passions that may drive us to wander carelessly in a world full of promise and uncertainty. More often than not the mind needs a break from our duties and daily machinations to see life […]