It’s been hard living in the world mom created for us without her. Everywhere we go a memory ambushes us, reminding our broken hearts of the missing shards; of how much she would have enjoyed sharing in the fun.
I can’t quite explain it. Four years into this motherless daughter journey, life feels more like a loop than a linear passage. Time replays itself, bends, taking us back to the days that were – to how it used to be.
It’s sureal! We find ourselves talking to her in spirit, unearthing the advice she burried in the deepest corners of our souls. Lost, we wander aimlessly through the streets we once called home. Her secrets forever a mystery.
It has been both enlightening and bittersweet to go through life without her. To envision a future in which she becomes a faded memory; a voice distantly echoed by my own. She’s in everything we do, and in everything we are. Yet, I must make peace with my new reality – a world in which her dazzling smile is only captured on film instead of existing out in the wild.
A thousand dreams left unfinished…our love, homeless and aggrieved.
Mom, we miss you!
Mrs. Enginerd - Nerd Whisperer 